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removed every little things about you HANDSOME. so sorry

wrong step, those one is the biggest mistake

if you already read my story about those handsome one, now i tell you that he's the biggest mistake that i've choosed in my life. first like this, when you would like to buy a fruit, you might choosed the best one right ? the fresh one. but you only saw it from the outside, besides you taste it first before you buy. my fault is, i bought this one, without taste it before. it looks good from the outside, and i took it. but then, it was rotten in the inside. then i realize, i picked the wrong one. and i regret it. but this is life, and the show must go on.

straight / unstraight

still can't sleep, 3:17 am

setelah sekian lama gue vakum dari dumay terlebih lagi blogging, gue coba untuk ngeBLOG lagi ditengah insomnia gue.

hey ppl ! especially young generation, lyk me :P
sekarang dunia perbelokan lagi ngetrend. ngerti nggak ya kira-kira ?
coba gue bahas dari basicnya dulu deh. first, the opposite of straight is unstraight, in indonesia it called koleb (belok dibalik). dari sisi cewek;perempuan;wanita (l*sbian) ada 3 gender; femme (f), andro (a), and butchy (b). dari sisi cowok;laki-laki;pria (g*y) cuma ada 2 gender; top & bottom. menurut lo, what's the reason that can make someone become unstraight ? is it right of being unstraight ?

gue baru akan menginjak 18th tapi nggak usah diragukan pengalaman gue dalam bergaul (ceileh, skip). ayoo menurut kalian kenapa ? is there any specific reason ? or they just want to be famous ? or maybe they're just trying something that they never knew and they got trapped into it ? how about bisexual ? could they being straight and normal again ?

1. being unstraight is NOT wrong. it's their choice. right or wrong, we cannot judge them. it's just between its person and God.
so, jangan kucilkan mereka yang unstraight. mereka sama kayak lo semua yang STRAIGHT/NORMAL. they're unstraight didn't mean that they're abnormal, right ? except, seseorang itu bawa pengaruh buruk buat lo. as long as they keep they own world with you guys which is in this case you guys = STRAIGHT.

2. why ? banyak alasan kenapa seseorang memilih untuk melawan kodratnya. bisa jadi karna faktor keluarga, pengen coba-coba, jenuh sama lawan jenis, terlalu sering disakitin/dikecewain/else, atau kemungkinan terburuknya DIBELOKIN.

3. how about bisex ? menurut lo ? kenapa ? kok bisa ? kadang diluar akal juga sih. gue sebagai cewek (dan kalian cewek-cewek yang straight) mungkin berfikir "ngapain sih suka sesama cewek ? toket udah punya masing-masing. masa mau sama-sama gali lobang ? udah ada laki malah demen ama cewek" ya kan ? pernah kan kalian berfikir seperti itu girls ? let me tell you a story. gue, pernah ngalamin yang namanya suka sama cewek. menurut gue, ada taste yang beda saat seorang cewek memberi perhatian yang lebih ke elo. it make a different sense. totally different. dan gak gue pungkirin juga, gue masih doyan cowok men. yaaa, according to me sih, alasannya karna taste yang berbeda itu aja gue bisa naksir sama cewek but hey, i'm STRAIGHT ya :D

4. straight AGAIN. pasti bisa deh, asal ada niat, dan dorongan yang kuat aja dari orang-orang di sekitarnya.
dan gue punya satu cerita. there's a girl, i can't say her name because it's too personal, dia cantik, dan pastinya banyak cowok yang mau lah ya jadi pacarnya. but she's unstraight dan dia nggak ragu lagi akan hal itu. dia juga nggak nutupin itu dari publik. including her mother. but idk any little thing about her father ya nggak pernah nanya juga sih. she told her mother, "mom, i wanna be a carrier woman. i don't want to get married" and also she told her mother that she prefer to be in love with a girl too than with a guy. and her mother accept her decision. mungkin yang kayak gini yang agak susah jadi straight. ya thinkin by your self deh kenapanya.

but once again. nggak salah untuk menjadi unstraight. bukan berarti gue menganjurkan. tapi, hidup lo bukan orang lain yang ngatur. kalo emang ada orang di sekitar lo yang unstraight, jangan pernah benci sama mereka atau mengucilkan dunia mereka. jangan berfikir miring soal mereka. sama aja kayak kita yang straight. ada yang klepto, ada yang suka mabok, ada yang junkies, bedanya cuma mereka suka sesama jenis aja. ya kan ? nggak ada yang suci dari dosa. nggak usah ngurusin atau mikirin dosa orang lain. biarkan aja mereka dengan hidupnya. selama lo nggak mengusik mereka, lo juga nggak akan diusik. eh, hati-hati ya, rasa ingin tahu bisa menjerumuskan. once you get trapped into it, it'll be hard to get out.

say peace for a better world :)

clearly showed me the real you

h as him ; b as bitch , with title "ga penting !"
June 29 'til July 3

b : I MISS YOUR VOICE !! u can ignore this message if u want.
h : I Miss u too emil !
km tau gk , temen2 cwe ak yg d fb tu gk bsa buat ak ktaua kea km :(
b : :) BIG MISS. ah pasti ada kaleee.
h : Gk ada nonno i :C

nanti smsan sama telfonan lg :D boleh gk
b : eh inget s nonno :D. aku udah ganti nomer.
h : ia apan inget km jd inget nonno :p
i knpa gnti ?
Trus skrg nope.a brapa ?
b : hehehe s nonno kelindes beca roda 4.
h : hah ia gt ? s nonno.a uda gk ada dong :C
brapa i nmr.a ?
b : ga ada dong. dkubur ny dsmping kuburan kurakurasimered aku gtuloh. nmr? tny operator m3 dong.
h : ah boong . kurakura km mati gt ? haha
ih masa harus nanya op m3 xp wee
b : ada yg mati ada yg ngga. ak puny kura" 3 nm ny mered smuaaa.
h : Ia tau oon kan uda d kasi tau sma km xD
b : oh bgs.bgs klo tau.
h : wle :p brapa i nmr.a x|
b : nmr ap i. nmr spatu? nmr 39 da. HAHA.
h : haha nonno xp
b : lburan kmn? jd k dufan?
b : k lampung sama aceh . km kmana ?
b : anjis enk bgt looo. dbdg aj. dsuru blk k jkrt am nykp, tp ogah. heu
h : haha . sndirian nh gue d aceh skrg :(

knapa gk blk k jakarta ?
b : emg dasar lo orgil. i ank ilang. z. ga ah. malay.
h : tapi asik gtuloh . trus liburan lo dmana ?
b : ia gue jg tau itu asik. z. dbdg. absn djkrt mau ngpn jg bngung. rrrrr
h : asalnya kan mau k dufan sma km tp lg marahan :C

huh
lg apa lo ?
b : HAHA bodor ya pke mrhn. lo sh gtu lupa kulit. ckck. lg nnggu kmr mndi ksong.
h : wkwkwk ia sorry sorry xp
edan mau mandi ey , tumben :p
b : yayaya dgn trpaksa saya mmaafknmu nak. ckck. mau boker bego.
h : hahah dasar gleuh gt :p

oh krain mw mandi .
br bgn y ? jd br boker xD
b : wleee. tp sxan mandi jg dh. da ak mh ank rjin sh. hoaahaha
h : wkwkwk tumben km mandi :p
mau kmana gt ?
b : mau k lipi nganter laporan. lg ap lo dlmpung? tdr dmn?
h : Dr lampung mh uda balik , skrg mh uda d bdg ae km x| haha
kmaren tdur d ruma tmen wktu d lampung mh
b : gaya bner puny tmn dlmpung. ckck. o uda dbdg. bwa opak kga?
h : haha temen kaka ak s , bukan tmen ak .
naha dr lampung bwa opak , gk nyambung xp
bawa gelang nh ak :) mau ?
b : eh opak ap kemplang ya. lupa lg. hhi. mau dooong. ck. oh dkira tmn ican.
h : kemplang ikan meureun . da gk beli itu . gede ey susah bwa.a :D

ia ak sisain dua buat emil x)

gyahaha they're so sweet. they're both a good actor and actress !

i should not trusted you from the beginning. this one's clearly showed me the real you. you're just such a fool things. and i was so stupid. yea whatever, i'd better stay away from a guy like you.

gila di asrama

hari pertama kuliah gue udah terlambat. nggak pake mandi nggak cuci muka nggak sikat gigi (lo bayangin deh tuh). untung gue nggak bau badan nggak bau mulut. grrr. parah deh pokoknya. sampe bersihin belek pun dijalan ke kampus hahaha.
dan nggak cuma sehari doang kayak gitu. setiap ada kuliah pagi gue nggak mandi. dan nggak pernah nggak terlambat. mahasiswi apaan yak gue ?
biar deh namanya juga mahasiswi jauh dari orangtua haha